Today I feel like talking about human experiencing their first love.
Hmm. First love. first thing that come to my mind when i see this word is couple made from heaven. just like in the fairytale. cinderella? snow white? yeah. its all great. but too bad its all crap,false hope. few minutes ago,i just read all the letters that i've got from the girl i purely love. Hmmm. then i browse through spyro laptop and saw some videos of her. and every video she will confess to me. cool shit huh?waha. haha. that make me think back about the past and memories. The pain that put a scar somewhere on my left chest. First love is something purely beautiful but at the same time it hurts twice as much as beauty. Now the girl that I used to love is not her anymore. Its not her. Its someone else. But now the new her is a friend to me. you get it? but the simple sweet nice cute old one just like in the video is the one i still love.Not a reality anymore just a freaking visualised fantasy.
Yeah i think God make my fantasy came through but for just a shortwhile. and poof!* its gone. haha. Now she's doing great and i'm happy for her. the old girl is the girl of my dream i must say. God must have a reason for this. Maybe i find someone better in the future. That will be great. Till that day comes,The happiness in me wont be satsified.
Now i'm going to talk about a mistake that I did.
yeah it was a mistake. I should not give hopes to her. she wasnt the one. now i hurt her and i feel all wrong guilty&sucks. I really hope she'll be alright.
To wrap this up First love is basically life experience for humans. for most humans i mean.
Heehs.*wide smile with the eyes that can't be seen*
Thats what i feel like typing. and it feels great.
PS:Life is not like steven spielberg script. Most of the time it wont go the way that you wanted. just face it and be positive. Life is fascinating.=D
.:bugger:. @ 1:07 AM